Showing posts with label release. Show all posts
Showing posts with label release. Show all posts

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Retro Poem #11: Nothing Comes Out


Do you know 
   that when you cry
   I feel it?
Do you know
   that when you hold it back
   I feel that too?
Sometimes I feel you
   hold down a great big sob
   but nothing comes out.
Sometimes the tears are there,
   but the fears are there too,
   and nothing comes out.
Sometimes you’ve long since 
   stopped the tears
   and I hug you
   and everything wants to start again
   but nothing comes out.
A great big cry
   bundled up with pain and fear
   and whatever else - I don’t know -
   surges toward the surface
   and slams into the wall 
   of your determination.
I am not sure exactly 
   what you are determined to do
   except to hold that bundle down
   and nothing comes out.
Your will is strong;
   you can do almost anything you want.
But sometimes I wish 
   that you would not master your emotions.
I wish they were free to be released
   good, bad
   strong, weak
   attractive, or not
   I wish they came out.
When a sob surges
   it needs to be released.
Emancipate the prisoners,
   and emancipate yourself.

Thursday, December 8, 2011

The Gospel of Restoration - Isaiah 61


             Hello.  My name is Josh, and I’m an alcoholic.
             I’m a porn addict, a compulsive gambler, a smoker, and a semi-regular crack user.
             I’m a shopaholic, workaholic, me-aholic.
             I’m the child of abusive parents, and now I’m a codependant adult.
             I beat my wife, and I’m more than $100,000 in debt.
             I am a rape victim, and I’m a sexual abuser.
             I’m grieving the loss of a loved one.
             I’m a racist, a legalist, a moralist, and a recovering hypocrite.
             I am depressed and lonely. 
Sometimes I have thoughts of suicide.  I may even have a plan.
I look like I have a lot of friends, but really I have a very hard time developing meaningful relationships.
I’m struggling with problems with my parents, and my marriage is falling apart.
I’m obsessed with my looks, and I have an eating disorder.
I’m addicted to the internet, and I am a flagrant procrastinator.  Not a good combination!
I have deep resentment and hidden anger.
I am addicted to romance.
My life is dominated by anxiety.
I use profanity often – especially when I’m not at church.
I can’t stop gossiping, no matter how many times I tell myself I’m going to stop.
I’m beginning to lose hope in God.
I am actually an athiest.
I doubt everything all the time.
I value achievement more than love.
I’m struggling to become the person God wants me to be, and I’m beginning to give up.
I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired.
I am lost, captive, blind, despairing, mourning, helpless, and hopeless.
I am broken.  I am a sinner.

Some of these are true of me.  All of these are true for someone in this room.